New Year's Day

7am -- crazy banging on door
toss & turn
awake & tired
read
back to bed

8am -- cat is dying
8:05am -- cat died
i sigh contentedly w a mini snuggle

10:30am -- dog fight
it rains
lonely
yearning

11am -- dog bounces in all happy & well -- wtf is the emergency!

Noon
Kareoke? Movie? Class reunion? Book sale?
But i wait in hope for the rainbow
I tell but it's wrong
Sad

There's only rain
sigh...
nap to numb the pain

4pm -- cat fight
tiny holes
talks on phone to crazy client
chat w Joyce (short respite)
Pours w rain
White van w mummy

Night sets in...
more pain
no movie news
kareoke/ class reunion -- blast it all

Toss and turn
will it ever go away
tempted antihistamine coma
Some tears
help w sleep
A comforting hello...

11pm
warmth thru the phone and sms
almost whole again
peace
i'll be ok