Hohum...

"To Find MYself"

many many times i've thot this
told myself this
written this in my diary

eversince i started work
today, was the 1st time, someone else has uttered this
and it stirred an echo

since last sunday i've been emo
unbalanced
triggered too easily
bad taste of the previous looming

dreams pile themselves
tangled, unsorted, irrational
INTENSE
confusing

no more webs please
no more irrationality

let go, LET GO!!

i thot i found myself
the nasty sharp tongue whimsical self
destroyer of good
NASTY BITCH
do not be fooled

i m sad

there's no self
not since 2002,
or then
or now

i should float
like a carcass
remains
of self
in shreds