Impending doom...

since past week, there's been a feeling of anxiety and impending doom
and i thot it might be over last nite
but i'm still haunted after waking up at 4pm today

wat is it??
and wat's breaking down all the barriers...
leaking in unwanted memories that threaten to drown.
i just wanna NOT remember anything ok
juz leave me alone
as far as i can figure -- there's no trigger

and wat's with all the quarreling or enstrangement?
perhaps the haze is more than a grey fog blanketing the heavens
it can actually induce depression with its dullness?

so lets take stock...
pp i care about are leaving
pp i care about hv left
pp i care about dun give a shit
pp i care about are still hanging around...

doesn't take a genius to figure who's winning
pms is early
the PH is here
why do i feel the doldrums creeping up
and my resistance crumbling

i frelling miss the pp who are just not gonna give a shit that's why.