INvisibility

"so i say..."
drowns out, unheard....

"remind me..."
forgotten...

"my off days... i do this..."
so when...
unheard and forgotten...
not bothered to be stored.

I HAVE A SUPER POWER I'VE NEVER KNOWN...

the invisibility cloak amongst frens,
esp the closer u are, the more invisible u become
u are there... u are expected to be there
but whether you physically are is not too impt

wat u say is.... blah blah blah...
unheard, un-noitced, not as impt as wat I'M SAYING...
MY LIFE, MY TROUBLES & AFFAIRS... BLAH BLAH BLAH....
oh btw, did u say something???...

does it take thunder to be heard??
earthquake to be noticed??
avalaunch to be remembered??
it is not v diff to rem i'm off on mondays when i can practically recite out a timetable i've barely glanced at...

it's the same EVERYTIME, with EVERYONE
so...
i've had it.
not bothering anymore.

Perhaps it's time for u guys to start listening to others other than YOURSELVES
making some effort other than taking things FOR GRANTED
showing some care and concern
doing things for others other than YOURSELVES

saying a faint "hi" when someone turns up,
and then turning to walk away as though the person is invisible...
saying "bye" and then continuing the conversation without so much as a pause or backward glance doesn't cut it. IT's FRELLING RUDE and DISMISSIVE.
So why should i bother to turn up for treatment like this.

Oh wanting tissue is not like a huge thing (to be shrugged off at)
but after tagging along like a piece of unheeded rag
and traipsing up and down the same road twice...
it becomes an ISSUE!

and really, dun bother to suggests or promise anything
'cos when the time comes for it (unless it's oredi been paid for...)
it never materilises... WHY??
Oh the great effort required to keep any promises is just too great at this point in life.
I need to conserve energy for more meaningless channel surfing, bumming and other spacing out activities.
Or i need to do the things i can do on other days on THIS PARTICULAR day that we agreed to hang out!

Oh there's more...
*like hi i promise to have dinner with u but i ended up doing the thing i can do EVERYDAY... but i still made time... ( oh i'm sooooo grateful for your little scraps of generosity!! why dun i wag and roll over!!)
*or hey yup i'd like to meet up... but erm just really can't make the effort to get outta the house... and my lunches are usually too busy... (well, there's still dinners and weekends... oh why dun i wait till hell freezes over? or earlier -- when i'm in my grave, perhaps u'll call then.)

Everything is just BS.
There's NOTHING to believe in.
Guess i'll be immersed in la-la land for the next few years.
I was smart when i was a kid.
Stoopidity comes with age.