2007 thoughts into the new year
2007 was ushered in up in the mountains @ samaden (near to st moritz). After a great dinner, and setting off the fireworks, oversleeping on new years day, having lots of cakes in the cafes, I suppose it is time for my reflections.
2006 -- not much. I feel, perhaps I might have wasted alot of time, should have spent more time doing real research. I complained too much, and did too little. I went into a phase of depression, during which, I brutally ignored all my friends, even though, my problems were a mere mole hill. I was worried that I would wake up, and not have the strength to find the one happy thing that will keep the day going. With all the inhumane catastrophe going on in the world, I almost dreaded reading the news.
I have a bad habit, I dont like to put my depression onto others, in fact, I try to hide it as much as I can, I believe many people do the same. Luckily for me, my friends unknowingly reached out. Many, unaware of my situation, reached out because love is to be given, not only when people are drowning, but also as a gift, just because. And the many "just becauses" that I received, while I felt like drowning, kept me going. Friends from far away called, I even received a care-package. Friends here :) showered love. I feel embarassed, because, I question, did I give them this love? Did I give them "just becauses"? I think I didnt do enough.
I am lucky, and I am really thankful. I will go on fighting, because I have to return all the love back into my world.
I suppose I dont wish for more this coming year. I will work on, and get my research done, not be daunted by failures. I will stop complaining, and redirect this into other energy.
On the more materialistic side of things
I will try to fly home this year
I want to give my parents a great vacation
I will meet up with one friend (excl. singapore with (1)), who is not in switzerland
On the more career side of things
Get my research done
Get my research done
Get my research done
On the personal field
I already love the loves of my life... But I learn, I have to let them know that I love them too. (I suppose this will work out to be something like: Take out an hour each week to talk to friends on the phone, to make sure they are doing fine)
Hopefully, next year this time, I will still be showered upon with so much love as I have received in the past year.
2006 -- not much. I feel, perhaps I might have wasted alot of time, should have spent more time doing real research. I complained too much, and did too little. I went into a phase of depression, during which, I brutally ignored all my friends, even though, my problems were a mere mole hill. I was worried that I would wake up, and not have the strength to find the one happy thing that will keep the day going. With all the inhumane catastrophe going on in the world, I almost dreaded reading the news.
I have a bad habit, I dont like to put my depression onto others, in fact, I try to hide it as much as I can, I believe many people do the same. Luckily for me, my friends unknowingly reached out. Many, unaware of my situation, reached out because love is to be given, not only when people are drowning, but also as a gift, just because. And the many "just becauses" that I received, while I felt like drowning, kept me going. Friends from far away called, I even received a care-package. Friends here :) showered love. I feel embarassed, because, I question, did I give them this love? Did I give them "just becauses"? I think I didnt do enough.
I am lucky, and I am really thankful. I will go on fighting, because I have to return all the love back into my world.
I suppose I dont wish for more this coming year. I will work on, and get my research done, not be daunted by failures. I will stop complaining, and redirect this into other energy.
On the more materialistic side of things
I will try to fly home this year
I want to give my parents a great vacation
I will meet up with one friend (excl. singapore with (1)), who is not in switzerland
On the more career side of things
Get my research done
Get my research done
Get my research done
On the personal field
I already love the loves of my life... But I learn, I have to let them know that I love them too. (I suppose this will work out to be something like: Take out an hour each week to talk to friends on the phone, to make sure they are doing fine)
Hopefully, next year this time, I will still be showered upon with so much love as I have received in the past year.
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