Mighty mad

u try and u try and u try........

and wat happens?
u always try to do the right thing whenever possible
even when things backfire or turn out insane
u still try to keep faith and do the frelling right thing!

so i ask the PUBLIC
wat does "a consultation" mean......????
when applied medically....
a visit to the clinic right... for ONE patient yeah.
so if your deluded mind decides to tell u that ONE consultation should include the WHOLE frelling family.... pls seek psych help or go back to kindergarten ok. Do not embarrass yourself by creating a scene only to amplify your own stupidity that we're kind enuff not expose.

and...
when i ask repeatedly "so it can walk??" "oh no so u guys can carry it in huh.... and it's life and death huh......"
blow me if i'm not burnt when i turn up to face empty walls.
shoot me should i lose any shred of faith and empathy facing such crap.

My choice.
Probably.
My lack of resilience.
Absolutely.
So just throw away the friendship since it means naught.
I'm not as perfect as u are.

BUgger iT

Life changes whether u want it to or not
and in ways beyond your control
As a person we change too
in ways beyond our control?
beyond our preferences
Pp come and go
beyond our control
We let pp come and go... do we choose this?
Treasure the times they walk with you so u'd hv this to keep when they walk by or get left behind. Such is life.
I miss Lily
I miss Typhoon...
I miss Sweetcorn....
Mayhaps this is just the part i walk alone or with somebuddy else.



Blossoming of Maxi
Forced to leave his happy blissful childhood behind
Made to rethink his current way of life
"Isn't there another way?"
Isn't there always a choice?
His father living the only life he knows how and sacrificing all for his kids.
With his end, a new beginning for those not yet set in their ways... for those able to change and think of others other than revenge and hopefully leave the viscious cycle of the slums.

Victor/Maxi - reconcilled on that nite, yet never more apart. The most bittersweet moment of the movie, a reflection of the romeo/juliet theme? That even in movies pp dun end up happily ever after...
A connection as deep as the ravine btwn.
Why do we hurt those we love the most
And why do we love those that are the most out of reach.

Wat's most impressive and memorable.... is Maxi's quiet triumph with his gentle acceptance in the face of haplessness and brutality. If only we are all so lucky to be so serene. And to have such a supportive and loving family.

Happy TIMES :)

Musings to a hot Sunday evening

Friday ended with "farewell, cruel world"... I wasn't too good, burst out laughing before I could shock my collegue... ("Pls call me, before you take your own life").

Bad news aside, good news was : Sabine is pregnant!! YEAYYEAY YEAY! After trying for 2 years, it is definitely great great news. Now, I can step foot back into England, perhaps for the wedding, but definitely for the baby shower :) . We dont know, if it is one or two (2 eggs, but how many were successful?).. will find out in 2 weeks :).

hurrah. but seriously, it is interesting, i think this gets too common that too many couples are having difficulties with pregnancies. stress related. sigh.

My thanks...

Anger
HURt
Abuse
.... the unfair world


dissipates with great friends
who understands
and never leaves u

Do not ARGUE or TALK back

*If u are not in a position of responsibility
*If u have no true knowledge
*If u have no authority

This is WORK
not PLAY

Just shut up,
listen
and try not to do anything stoopid.
Becos...
u really do not know what u are doing.