Over the air, Under the sea

Monday, August 28, 2006

Il Duomo, Como

Today was well spent roaming the beautiful streets of como. The Cathedral of Como was really impressive, given that the town was really small (and touristy).

http://www.larioonline.it/italiano/como/como-duomo.html

What I really liked were the stained glass of the dom. They are relatively new (considering the dom was built in 13XX and the glass comes from 18XX-19XX..). Gotta load up the pics of them real soon.

Unfortunately, the internet doesnt have obscure details about the dom, but I really have to give credit to the cathedral, because they really gave explanations for all the stained glass, within the cathedral itself. And most unfortunately, I dont remember most of what I read... sigh.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Tibet SOY SAUCE

Monday, August 21, 2006

BoN VoYaGE!!

My 1st dance teacher and still the BEST!!
I thank you for sharing your passion with us...
for being patient and demanding at the same time...
for your funky choreo (all time fav still "Your Song" and "Becos of U")
And most of all -- for inspiring in us a dance spirit!
I will remember NOT to "Look at my Crotch"...
And maybe ATTEMPT to reach my L hand to my R extended and bent leg while balancing bent over ONLY on ONE leg and arm...
Or reaching my nose to knees without rolling around like an egg...
Have a Safe Journey!!
Come back frequently for visits and classes!
You will be missed.

Friday, August 18, 2006

for who's benefit

2rads or not 2rads....

3-guy avail day
DUN U DARE MENTION THIS!!
Too smelly...
I'm just not doing it juz COZ
Neither is he 'cos bad neck
Why should we, why din they do it there!!

ok ok = raises hands, backing off, eat my words...

only ONE guy avail day...
damn, no choice
suffer the smallies
perhaps they can slide him down while attached to the stretcher
poor ONE guy

SOMETIMES i wonder...
for who's benefit?
Sometimes even unselfish pp can be selfish.



WHERE'S THE PLAN...???
Referral - assessment >> blank... plan >> blank...
O : "So how...>>??"
ERM... sorry we have no idea
O : WTF...

NOTE the MISSING LINK!!??

Follow-up?
Wat?? (scratches head) -- must we...

We DO NOT beg for info
feel free to give freely
it's YOUR responsibility afterall



Sentosa


Finally got the pics from Larissa from our trip in Singapore. It is funny, L makes such great pictures, it really makes one wonder how I never saw Singapore from this beautiful point of view...

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Hohum...

"To Find MYself"

many many times i've thot this
told myself this
written this in my diary

eversince i started work
today, was the 1st time, someone else has uttered this
and it stirred an echo

since last sunday i've been emo
unbalanced
triggered too easily
bad taste of the previous looming

dreams pile themselves
tangled, unsorted, irrational
INTENSE
confusing

no more webs please
no more irrationality

let go, LET GO!!

i thot i found myself
the nasty sharp tongue whimsical self
destroyer of good
NASTY BITCH
do not be fooled

i m sad

there's no self
not since 2002,
or then
or now

i should float
like a carcass
remains
of self
in shreds

when clouds pass by...

Have u ever suddenly stopped and wondered ~~ wat happened before and how had u missed it all? And how could u have been so blind?
Everyday we wake up, we go thru the familiar routine of either work or plans to hang out with existing friends... At work, we think of how this day is gonna end and wat we'd do after that. On free days, we look fwd to plans being fulfilled, too busy organinsing and trying to fit all that we wanna do into as structured a day as possible, so that time is not wasted. And the pattern is repeated...
Each day we put on our blinkers, focusing only on wat's "impt" so that we can quickly finish up and plough thru to the next day. There's no conscious effort to be aware of the actual day and moment in its entirety. Mundane events do not register longer than the moment it takes to be over, and at the end of each day, i dun even remember wat happened at the beginning. I dun remember the pp or faces i've seen. Saddest of all, i dun remember the times spent with colleagues who eventually become close frens. It hadn't always been like this. There was fun to look fwd to before, when each day was filled with new adventures...
Did life change or did we?
And when someone actually breaks thru the barriers, it surprises u. You suddenly start to see them and they register in your life; and u wonder ~~ "how come i didn't notice her before" ... especially if she's been working with u for almost 2 years, no matter how sporadic...
When a person suddenly shifts from being a person in the periphery or from a colleague to a fren -- u puzzle that it took so long to happen and wonder wat caused the shift or triggered it. Most of all, u wonder at your own blindness and indifference before. Sometimes, the reason can be attributed to timing -- different scheduling and branches etc -- but it still takes u by surprise and u ask "hey where did all that time go?! how come there's no memory other than the now" And how come u really didn't pay much attention to them then.
And when this realisation takes place at a time when the someone is due to leave soon, it makes u all the more sad of the times missed in appreciation and recognition of the friendship. Of the time past when there could've been more outings, more hanging out sessions, chilling etc... Now, there's only so much time left. And it makes u cry each time u think of it and u chide yourself for being an emotional baby.
People come, people go... that's how it is and how it'll always be. If only we kept this in mind more consciously and appreciate the person infront of us at that very moment, lest it be the last. Although life is usually not as dramatic as that, it's still as unpredictable.
There are many things taken for granted daily or totally ignored and unregistered as we zip thru life. It's not easy to live in the moment without our minds wandering 10steps ahead.
So i'm telling myself to lay back, relax and watch each cloud drift by... slowly, quickly.. in their own time. And be thankful that there's still time.

Friday, August 11, 2006

moving forward

Ahhh... so today I felt guilty. I dont spend enough time with my friends because I am lazy, or rather, I am too comfortable. So I have my kidnapping, my senerading and my true love (story-telling), and so I am so happy, I dont bother much with socializing....

tdy, i moved my ass ... had lunch with lucy, who was depressed because of everything.
then had dinner with bernerdetta, who was having problems trying to integrate into the swiss society...

sigh... so I feel guilty, because I should have taken time out for them earlier... and I know I should take time out... so now it is a test of resolve... I mean, what does it cost me? just a little time... and probably, it means a lot to them at this point in life?

Oh... but dinner ... was so great.. had cassis (not with aligote... but with chardonnay... which wasnt bad...)...

Am going to recommend Bernerdetta your Edward Tulane book... and she is a toto-chan reader!

And... being very drunk on cassis and aligote... for the record... I love you very much...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

A little love

Was eating grapes last night... which, actually, oh, I remove the skin of the grape before eating it... so this is a painful ritual, and a horridly bad habit. But definitely, it is something that makes one smile:

I was on the plane with KK, and was eating grapes. KK looks over, and goes, 'my god, woman, you are crazy' ... he also mentioned that his ex-girlfriend insisted on eating grapes peeled as well (well, so i m not the only fusspot around...). I answered, ' since i am peeling it for myself, it doenst affect you, so why shd you bother?'... upon which KK says, if someone will skin the grape for me, it would really mean that that person truely loves me. 2 things

1. KK really loved his ex-girlfriend, since he did indeed skin grapes for her :) HAHAHA...
2. Mireille really loves me, because she even skinned the grapes that we use in our salads because she knows I dont eat the skin (although she is always nagging that I am crazy).

AAhhh, a little thing goes a long way, because I felt really snug and happy. And when I am peeling my grapes, I know, Mireille really loves me. It never fails to bring a smile.

(And I will dewedge grapefruit (deskin inner wedge skin) for the ones I love...)

Of course, I have endless number of super-heros, each and every not less worthy that grape-peeling superhero, but was peeling grapes this morning :).

Monday, August 07, 2006

7th Installment...

One of the most physically challenging, yet most memorable and intellectual trips. It's hard to find the right words to describe, so deal with this.
Perhaps this happens for all? As a person ages and experinces more, there is a sense of awakening, not only to itself but to its surroundings?
I say this because i dun think i would have been as aware of wat had transpired this holiday should i have been even a year younger.
On the surface, many pp have said that i din look like i've enjoyed a single bit of this tour. Perhaps it's true what with the endless headaches that are relentless and panadol immuned, to a non-stop pissing diarrhoea which robbed me of any appetite the last 2 days, and reduced an oredi subdued me to an Oscar equivalent ~ Major GROUCH, esp when the buscopan wears off and the cramps set it. Plus i am neither buddhist nor a huge fan of temples.
But i beg to differ. It's one of the best holidays i've had in a while. And surprisingly, still retaining some historical info thanks to our ever bubbly tourguide. She's definitely the highlight of this trip, without which i may not be typing this so enthusiastically.
For those whom Tibet is their dream-country....
Please read up more about altitude sickness prior to packing up your bags. It pays to be well prepared, and for the elderly -- i would really push for a health check on your bp and heart condition before making any plans. The low oxygen content resulted in a greater impact than i had anticipated. Bring more panadol and request for the IV fluids as soon as you start to feel off-colour. There's no point in dumb suffering.
OK back to the diary story...
so why was this a memorable trip?
Despite appearing to doze or gaze uninterestedly out of the bus window for most of the trip, that's actually how i absorb information best, other than the fact that the seats are really too high and it's much too uncomfy to strain one's neck all the time just to watch CN's expression each time she says something, not that it's unattractive!
And i really love the ever changing scenery from a sudden area of lush weeping willows (that sends u that cool green breezy feeling) to the next rock-pebbly bank by the river or at the foot of a sandy mountain (zipping u back to the hot sorching dryness). The same mountain can be sandy one one side and lusciously green on the other. It's totally an oxymoronic picture! Boggles the senses but love it!!
As we bus on... the occasional sight of a SINGLE humanbeing traipsing in the faraway fields followed by a black yak... to small children scattered amongst the grassland, under the only shade providing tree, rolling around on the ground, their faces peeking visibly throught the grass shards.... suddenly the vastness of what's out there strikes u for a fleeting moment, fading once your mind registers that something special has happened. Another layer of your consciousness awakened? to your surroundings?... uncomprehending but intriguing enuff to set you thinking. Marvellous as u set your mind free to wander, no thots, no concerns...
Despite the trip being well catered for with appropriate pit-stops, ample food and water provided, 3-4star newly built accommodation with cable and proper bath facilities... the desert setting with limited shade deludes your mind into regarding drinking water as a SACRED necessity not to be without lest you DEHYDRATE... the long bus rides sends your bladder into super paranoia that it MUST be released at EVERY available pit-stop lest u should wet your pants, when in actual fact you hardly pee more than 3 times daily back home!!!
sigh... the irrationality and freaking out your body goes thru in unfamiliar territory!
End result... a void ensues when u arrive back home into the comforts of easy cushy familiar city life, where you're never short of water (though u hardly drink more than 3 glasses a day anyway...) and never without access to a clean toilet with proper flushing and paper. A void that leaves u surprisingly discomfited, that life here is really too soft and easy. There's no need to know survival and you find life less real than it had been when you had to "fight" for it for a while.
It's no wonder everyone's trying to find meaning in life. It's no challenge when survival is no longer a concern. Life is less when u have too much.
Maybe the reason i've enjoyed this trip so much is that thru the hardships and discomforts -- i felt truly ALIVE briefly.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Om Mani Padme Hum


This pic gives a better feel for the temple...

noTes for P5...

Jpeg file still too space occupying.

After the o/n Fx tx of dextrose, anti emetic, secret chinese meds and more trusty panadol...
we head out to our 1st taste of TIBET - LHASA.
Ancient, mysterious plateau of the east...
Secluded from the modern world... a spiritual world at heart.
We visit Da Zao Si...
One of the important temples in Tibet -- destination of prostrating pilgrimages.
Only selected village fellows are allowed to carry out this sacred and back breaking task, upon which they return in glory, to a status beyond all.
If you should meet a pilgrim along his way, share your bread and water and he would carry your prayers to the temple for you.
Pilgrims are also offered revered hospitality from villages they pass thru.

Your hands in prayer should be palms facing tog but hollowed. Movement is from forehead to mouth to heart, with/out prostrating.
Clockwise (deosil) is the direction to circle a buddha, or spin the Prayer Wheel.

As the Wheel Turns... (tibet P5)

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Q & A

Questions from Julz's BLog... things to think or not think about.

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
hmmm, tough question. If i'm selfish -- yes. But honestly -- this needs a few years more to be answered.

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
self cut sleeveless lost found hunny bear tee

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR (Friendster) LIST?
Not sure if on list...

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS?
Nope. Not anymore.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR (Friendster) LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
All, if not they won't be on my list. Dun really like just adding aquaintances but a few are.

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
From my own womb -- none. Pregnany freaks me out!! Preggophobia maximus!

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
As good as it gets... who can stop insane bikering w mums.

9. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
it's private

10. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
But of cos.

12. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
Starting the road to recovery.

14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
11:30am - for dance... still late as got lost driving.

15. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Taxi-ing home from dinner w Princess, Julz, Weng & Kim
Rosemary chicken is yummy but the HV's seems better. Perhaps better ambience.

16. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
Gently tugged yes. Like a head massage. Love for pp to play with my hair.

17. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Run freely and wildly thru an open filed of flowers with only the open sky above my head, run and run till i flop contentedly on the ground

18. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
3 nites ago - showed her my head and earrings.

19. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Wat only one? I have a list and i think everyone wld agree.

20. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
Spend a thousand on frens - their wish list. Ask Max wat dress's she's into at that moment and get it for her. Buy Princess whatever she wants (within limit). Offer my mum an amt to save. Take a short holiday - possi to Tibet again or Mongolia.

21. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
almost to expiry

22. DESCRIBE WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING?
one of my fav - dorothy perkin's cow boy shorts

23. LAST THING YOU ATE?
a famous amos cookie from the fridge

24. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
no pref in s'pore but sept in Oz - spring time with an explosion of cherry blossoms, so preety.

25. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
summer in Oz - blistering heat

26. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
lets not talk about it

27. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
rather not say

28. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
yahoo mail!!

29. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
It's saturday - who else!!

30. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
tonite. perhaps it's not sad really but it's triggering sadness

31. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
sure, and i'll be disppointed if it's not a natural reaction

32. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
coke with lemon tea

33. FAVORITE FOOD?
smiley face taka donut, annie's sour cream prezt, tatufo/rum raisin/durian gelato, garlicky escargot, plaster prata, semi spicy korean noodles, bao bei meehoongui from Whampoa, asparagus/pork yakitori, currey pepperrice, cold cha soba, soft shell crab handroll, kobayashi eggy noodle,

34. FAVORITE DESERT?
most chocolatey foods

35. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
not as great as pp say but then again i've never been to the country...

36. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
nothing, should i?

37. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE 10 YEARS FROM NOW?
in open fields, cool green forests, sparkling streams...

38. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?
to a certain level
happier now with dance back in my life
happy when i think about my frens

39. DID YOU EVER LOVE SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT IT CAUSED YOU PAIN?
isn't tat wat love is.

40. FINAL QUESTION: DO YOU THINK YOUR LIFE SUCKS?
occasionally, esp if i get called after midnite!
at the moment - nope. but this can fluctuate with PMS and my frens.
in all, my life is too sheltered.

Friday, August 04, 2006

LED2

LED -- The 3-letter code name for the airport @ S.P.

S.P. -- home of the hermitage museum, (ahhhhh)... So the russians being so rich because of oil, and being such europeans, have this wonderful collection of art works housed in the winter palace. Firstly, the place itself is huge, and breathtaking (interior, more so than the facade)...

But the collection, oh, the collection... Ok, it was a little lop-sided, not too many artists, and mostly early mordern (I am taking about impressionists upwards, that is), but still huge enough.. two rooms at least of matisse, 1 room of picassos, 1 of van gogh... and many more....

IBM-powered website : shows many of the digital collections, however, the real thing is so much so much more... sigh... I am in love.

The cathedrals and churches were not to be outdone. there was the st issac's (interior SO fantastic)... converted to a museum, so not really used as a place of worship anymore. What's still used is the Lady Kazan Church... where, the miracle icon of Lady Kazan is. So most of the loyals were women, how queued up to have their turn to pray at the icon.

Unfortunately, the day I was headed for the russian museum, I fell sick, so I missed my kadinskies :(...

Foodwise -- I went all out russian, they use loads of fats --- butter, lard, cream... Didnt drink any vodka, or for that matter, any form of alcohol ... brought back 2 bottles to share with friends though... :)

They had loads of sailorboys, considering that it is at the sea :) towards sweden.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

LED


So, this is what I have been up to... 5 days in St Petersburg. After freaking out for 2 months and worrying myself crazy about being murdered on the streets in St Petersburg, I found out, it is as safe as most other european cities....

Ok, so the language was definitely a challenge, but, hey, I survived with sign language (although, the people are quite a rather grouchy bunch).

Hvnt much time to blog now (am @ work), so will just leave a picture... (dont have time to find nice ones from the 300 photos I took, but I think this will do for now)

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

WHY?

1stly before i continue...
wat's happened to my hubby?? MIA it seems. Hurry back. Miss your blogs.
Have you been kidnapped by J; serenaded by P; or just over indulged in yummy spicy food by VJ!!



Why do...
People always assume you're so smart just 'cos u come from a well-known school? And what the heck does "u are so smart" mean anyway? Does it mean you're a better person than the rest -- of course not. Does it even hint at your character in any way -- NOPE. So why the hell would anyone wanna tell someone else that he's smart or clever as though it has any value.

People always comment "Wa so rich!" when u tell them u live along Holland/6th ave. I dun say "oh you're so poor" when someone tells me he lives in a HDB flat or hostel! It's just home. And being wealthy doesn't really set one apart from others. Plus does anyone ever consider the fact that it's usually the PARENTS' house!!

All my life, words like 'smart' ' clever' 'imaginative/creative' etc etc floats above my head, innocently and falsely buffeting a naive ego -- as though all these actually mean anything. Perhaps they have some weight when you're still in school but by uni most of us would have pretty much figured out that these are all meaningless phrases, said only to pacify and satisfy parents.
It really doesn't matter if you get good grades or live in a big house -- wat matters more is who you are and wat you do. Your character as a person and how much people skills you possess.

Being who i am, i deeply admire those who can burst into lengthy conversations with whoever's infront of him, and feel comfortable and confident in whatever they say. It's like magic the way they can interact so easily and smoothly with anyone. I can't.
I can't be nice to pp i dun like, i can't make small talk, i can't even be bothered to interact with pp whom i dun consider frens, hence my small tight circle (whom i love dearly). But sometimes, i do wish i have more pp skills, esp when i meet someone cute.

I guess one can only be blessed with so much... leave some gifts for others.
No gift of the gab nor subtlety. Rude, wild and unyielding - is me.
But i really really HATE to be judged by where i live or where i've studied etc. Frelling superficial.