Song: Unfaithful

Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

Cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

Hes more than a man

And this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in

Because I´m gone again

And to him I just can´t be true

And I know that he knows I´m unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don´t wanna do this anymore

I don´t wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don´t wanna hurt him anymore

I don´t wanna take away his life

I don´t wanna be...

A murderer

I feel it in the air

As I´m doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek

He´s here reluctantly

As if I´m gonna be out late

I say I won´t be long

Just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn´t have to tell

Because we both know

Where I´m about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I´m unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don´t wanna do this anymore

I don´t wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don´t wanna hurt him anymore

I don´t wanna take away his life

I don´t wanna be...

A murderer

Our Love, his trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don´t wanna do this

Anymore (anymore)

I don´t wanna do this anymore

I don´t wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don´t wanna hurt him anymore

I don´t wanna take away his life

I don´t wanna be...

A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

Aritste : Rihanna

so she says...

LESS GIVING OF MYSELF...

It is a whole new way to look at things...
She always hands me a new pair of glasses for the world...
But this one's only temp...
Witholding wat u can give is just as torturous.

You can't give less of yourself,
expect less in return
and hope to live painlessly and free from disappointments.
It's called floating in a bubble.

Perhaps that explains the aloof coolness sometimes...
The self-centredness...
I miss the quirky thorough longwindedness...
The mental stimulation uncompared...
Even the exasperating lateness and slothings.

On the other hand...
I miss the sponatneous explosions of rapture...
delight and girlish laughter...
the sweetness of hugs and kisses...
to hold her in my arms...
to know she's mine.
I just hated the cattiness and meaness sometimes exposed.

Lemons lemons lemons...
u can't have too much lemonade
But lemons are ultimately still sour...
And too much can be numbing.
I miss the refreshing, cheerfulness...
The knowledge that all will be well
As long as there is lemonade.
But the lemon got squashed...
by me.

Behold the quick scurrying of a crab...
Amazing in stelletos...
My knees will die trying to catch up - LOL.
The silly ditzyness...
Booze and glamour hiding the innocence of sweet dreams...
The taitai in the making.
Too much work and no time to play.
And i demand too much.

I bid sweet adeiu
To my shrew tamer...
My moral guide and lessons learnt...
Likely my only knight in shining armour.
Go forth in your new conquest...
And do not forget your petulant damsel in distress.

So in the giving less of myself,
I bid u one and all GOODNITE.

But wait...
How can i forget to send my sweet Hubby
A Goodnite kiss!
Put on your armour and face the spikes around you.
It's only a small part of your day.
Throw it all away when it ends,
For your 3 heros will always be there to cushion any falls.
Ciao.

Impending doom...

since past week, there's been a feeling of anxiety and impending doom
and i thot it might be over last nite
but i'm still haunted after waking up at 4pm today

wat is it??
and wat's breaking down all the barriers...
leaking in unwanted memories that threaten to drown.
i just wanna NOT remember anything ok
juz leave me alone
as far as i can figure -- there's no trigger

and wat's with all the quarreling or enstrangement?
perhaps the haze is more than a grey fog blanketing the heavens
it can actually induce depression with its dullness?

so lets take stock...
pp i care about are leaving
pp i care about hv left
pp i care about dun give a shit
pp i care about are still hanging around...

doesn't take a genius to figure who's winning
pms is early
the PH is here
why do i feel the doldrums creeping up
and my resistance crumbling

i frelling miss the pp who are just not gonna give a shit that's why.

Wine Degustation

So had a new-age wine degustation last weekend at bellagio, Italy. It is a machine, you buy a card, and pay for whatever you try (wines etc)... The idea was interesting, but I think the system is too bad for the wine. Some wines we tried were definietly way too oxidized... perhaps, the bottle was opened for way too long, so this was not the best experience.

Although, we did have a very good bottle of barolo over the game of poker... I won :) because I was just simply very conservative...!

Lascia ch'io painga

Lascia ch'io painga
La cruda sorte
E che sospiri
La liberta!
Il duolo infranga
Queste ritorte
De' miei martiri
Sol per pieta


Let me weep over my cruel fate,
And sigh for my lost freedom!
May the pain shatter the chains
of my torments just out of mercy.

wary?
then go away
wat's new, it is afterall your FORTE

used and trampled upon again
used at your convenience
rip out my plasters
fester the wounds
WHY EVER NOT?
i'm your eternal slave

colleagues
not frens
F the schld and summaries
they're NOT tattooed on me 24-7
u say they ignore u
they only contact u for work...
LEARN AND DO THE SAME
to me

choose the sandman any time
over frens
ok ok i get it
there's only ever time for WORK

i miss my frens

munch's madonna

So anyways, 2 weeks ago, we were talking about paintings and nudes... One of the most captivating ones I think is this madonna, by munch. It is actually a woodcut, and again, there are series of drawings that lead up to this...

Took this picture off the moma website, which actually isnt that bad!

So munch, definitely known for his scream (Hey, the found the art work after it being stolen for 2 years! (or at least, i recall?)).... The scream, actually caught my eye when I was still in school, it was on the back cover of reader's digest some time in the late 1980s... I dont even think we have anymore issues of this left, but it is really really funny, that I still remember the picture from way back then...